Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Silver Saturday

hello.
I love my life, no doubt about that
even in the dark days or the less sunny seasons
I have kept my faith and my buoyancy with the help of
friends ( like you :-) ) and family - God bless them!
I have joy and peace that comes from knowing that
all is as it should be.
Proof of that last statement is this:
This is how it is, how could it be another way?

What God has given us is so much more than we expected
and so much more than we deserved.
My mom has had much more time than most women
to enjoy her comfy warm home, her dog, her beautiful mountain community
and recently to re-experience camping in the Sierra Nevada and locally.
She has been generous with her family, and it has come back to her,
she gets the kind of loving care and attention that we all would want.
I can sense the gratitude in her heart for being able to be
in her own home, not on strong pain medications
and able to visit freely with those who come to call and pray with her.

We are ever so thankful that God has made this day
and filled it with such beauty.
Thank you for your prayers.
Mom lives, and fully, until she is translated into God's presence at some future time.

Monday, July 26, 2010

no time for Zeroes anymore

I used to have goose egg days when i figured the amount of value I had added to my life or to others was a ZERO. I am pretty sure that was just a mistaken notion and a fabrication of a depressed mental state that wanted a reason to beat up on myself. We all do that some, my family seemed better at it than some others. Dad was easy going, mom was hard, even on herself, and to this very day has not learned to relax the standard she has long held; that a day without WORK is a day of shame, a day thrown away, and one which should put you in fear of judgment from God, Himself, at your doorstep, with His divine clipboard of who did and who did not earn their right to breathe today.
I am like my dad in many of the good traits, and crazy is one of them. Crazy about the world around me, crazy when its raining outside ( or sunshining). I get crazy at the top of tall trees and on rooftops. I am crazy in love.
with the help of several good therapists I am appreciating myself and my unique gifts that I bring to this world, to my family and the gifts within that are private, for me alone to enjoy.
- - - - - Suffice it to say that I will always get to the end of each day and say, I did good today. I am worth a lot not because of WHAT I did so much as WHO I am and the spirit and love and joy that I possess and demonstrate in my daily life.

Friday, April 16, 2010

First sail - sunset

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these bright young people make me smile and not just because they love sailing as much as I do

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


I appreciate the local volunteers who help with counseling, legal aid, and physical assistance to the women and children that are escaping abusive homes.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

on his way to save the day


the parish priest is coming by to visit mom
and bringing the Bishop of San Bernardino with him. Today

Monday, April 20, 2009

baby you can drive my car

Not so long ago I was stuck
or was it my car? Stuck in a yard where less than an inch of snow had made the ground so soft and slick that I could not get traction and in my efforts to free my vehicle, it had sunk lower into the ruts in the silty clay. I had to call a tow truck ( no triple A card) to tow me thirty feet. Then I could move again on my own.
Later on, when I was restarting a relationship with a dear woman who probably knows me as well as anyone, the stuck in the mud illustration was useful.
It was not a healthy time in my life. Depression and a large dose of self pity and lethargy had my mental, emotional and physical tires spinning in the mud of life's low point, divorce.
I was not a wreck, I still had my beautiful children with me, and I always had my family ( of origin) cheering me when they could and helping in so many ways. I was not rolled over upside down and smashed beyond recognition ( like some cars I used to drive) but I was going nowhere just as surely as if I had no gas in the tank, or someone had taken the battery out.
The energy that was brought to this 'stuckness' by the best friend was very much like the tow truck. No doubt it was just what was needed, and so appreciated. She helped me get out of the simple ruts of daily despair and loss of vision, and onto a stable place where my own 'drive' was enough to move me a bit further down the road of life.
For that sort of help I will always be grateful. My life was changed and I moved on in respect to getting counseling, finding a diagnosis that fit as well as the quest for proper treatment and medication. Today I have less sad days, more sense of who I am and what I am about, and about nine years of various good and bad experiences to support the claim that "I am better now, than I have ever been".

The real lesson is this: Once the tow truck gets you to a safe place, it unhooks and you must resume driving yourself. No one looks sharp, or feels great going down the road, being propelled by another, and sitting there pretending to steer and work the pedals. Life is a contact sport.
When you get knocked about a bit it is alright to have some one set you upright. It is then your own privilege to continue on in a healthy way toward your goals.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Family

this much joy is hard to contain
all three of my beautiful kids sharing the table with my terrific mom
each of the recipes I pulled from various sites working so well together.
Being sure I got the right present for the special daughter's 18th birthday.
having them all sit together on the couch learning German from Rosetta Stone.
I think it is mostly playtime, but I do want to learn my mother tongue, sometime.

mom had a wonderful Sunday evening
it is all worth it when I get to see that.

When I am that old (90) I hope to be as alive and sharp.

Monday, January 19, 2009

No complaints*

Not a bad day in the desert.

I rose too early, before the sun, went for egg sandwich breakfast at local chain, yum!
Used the fitness center here at the Hilton garden Inn.
The fitness center is apparently a place you go if you don't have firewood to cut, split or stack.
Checked my email at the business center, alas, I had no business to do (hysterical laugh).
I went on to the business of writing a paper letter, something I love to do.
Woke my mom up about 7:30 and had her out the door about 8:30 for the appointment at the outpatient surgery center at 9am. they took out a cataract, That took three hours. it would have been less but she fought them tooth and nail, mistakenly thinking they were going to harm her. Whew! i would not have wanted to be the nurses and helpers. it took FOUR of then to hold her still for the operation, can you imagine?
holy smokes. her first words to me, "where were you when I needed you?"
Ok, got mom back to the hotel, settled in alright.
For me it was more fitness center, jacuzzi and swam a bunch of laps in the outdoor pool.
For folks in the northeast or Midwest, an outdoor pool in January is what you call a skating rink, just not frozen....
Now some blogging, email, and then dinner. Maybe Thai food.

Later I will work some more on my jigsaw puzzle and read a bit more of THIS AMAZING BOOK! ( link to amazon) by greg Cynaumon, Ph.d

Ok the asterisk *
no complaints*
Perhaps there are a few nurses or orderlies who have bruises, THEY might have something to say about the feisty old lady (89) who was not going to take being poked and prodded any longer!

such is life - for mom and myself.
I am taking care, and staying clear when she gets angry...

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Finally, it is December and

we have snow
and I have aching muscles
but am getting stronger
and more thankful to God
for all the blessings
(even the cold white ones)
that He is showering upon me

I mix happy and sad, and
hopeful with resolute
and come up with a me I can live with

My tree house is so cozy in a blowing snowstorm
( as long as the covers are up to my nose)

pics of the snow to come for you sunbelt folks.....

Mom got her massage today from the talented Lisa
what a Godly and sweet woman
she comes to our family as an angel
with healing in her hands

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Welcome home Rick

Two weeks on the Atlantic ocean must have been tough to bear.
I am so glad you are back and will see you this weekend, hopefully.
You are a wonderful brother to me and such a vital part of our family, thanks for all you do for myself and mom, and being so patient with each of us. We have worked through these many years to clear the brush and brambles from our relational paths, and now we stand ready for the next season and all the excitement it will bring.

Happy travels to my brilliant and talented sister on her trip to Canada. May the splendor of fall's display remind us all of the wonder of a planet made for our enjoyment and prosperity. Thank you for seeing the value in my dream, for helping finance the treehouse project and talking to me so often, as I sort out the past years, and plan for the brighter, better future.

I salute my older sister in Florida on starting a new business, and filling a need, serving people and doing so in an ethical, sensitive way. I am so inspired by your strength and energy. You give so much to your children and grandchildren, it will all come back t- you a hundred fold, as God sees your love, and wraps you in His love this day.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Tree apartment news

so many new ( small and large) changes and additions to the tree house:
a deck and ramp attach it to the main house
felt on the roof to make it rain tight ( shingles coming soon.)
installed 4'x8' picture window in living room
trim outside making the siding look nearly finished ( paint soon)
one of the front doors is in place,
all of it looking great
thanks to the crew and the young tree house builder, Jared
who has been my inspiration so many times.


i guess i will go over to the meet n greet to see what is new......

Friday, July 18, 2008

Captain of my vessel

I love that my life is in my hands, and that I seem to be able to steer it again.
I am steering toward a camping trip and toward staying closer to my family, they mean the world to me.
My sister has let me work on her place many times, and it is always a blessing.
This time I am down here on vacation but I just can't resist fiddling with some of the things that make me happy and make her place look even MORE beautiful.

Had a good Swedish massage tonight - very relaxing, almost went to sleep on the table. drove down to the beach but it was gray and cool so I did not stay long. I have plenty of sun already on plenty of my pale parts, so I am happy all over about the trip so far. more tomorrow.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Reach out, right now

pray for Chris,
she is having a tough time
with family illnesses.
She is a dear and would welcome your visit
and your loving comments.


I have shower remodel pictures here

Thursday, September 20, 2007

prayer

I am amazed at God.
( shows how dense I can be )
I am glad for His healing power, gracious love
and tender mercies.
I can not imagine what my life was before him
( but I do have a few pictures, hehe)
It is appropriate that I say a few words, to Him, here.

Lord, thank you for the way the light comes in this morning
and reminds me of the gathering of your people which is to come.
Thank you that when I walk in the dark, through an unlit room
it shows what life is like without you; no reference points.
When I am sad or confused, your spirit rises up within me
and brings clarity, hope and joy.
The friends I have are true, the family I am part of is pure gold,
my children are gifts from you, to love and encourage for a short season,
and then I stand back and watch, in awe, as they do exceedingly abundantly
more than I could have ever done. ( but I will still try to keep up with them)
Lord, you have given this man so much more than I expected, and more than I deserved.
Thank you for all of that, and for your love, as well, displayed in your own son.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

cooking peach preserves

when you have 20 minutes to "burn" in between batches of freestone peaches
that you are canning ( or jarring)
whaT DO YOU DO?

Blog, of course.

what a WEEKEND!
Thursday dinner out with my mom, and daughter and special friend.
La Montana: muy delicioso, chile relleno - and then choco cake ( ouch!)

Friday night progressive dinner with the church folks:
yummy appetizers, THEN prime rib of beef, perfectly done
and dessert at the pastor's house ( ouch ouch!)

Saturday - live jazz in the park,
snacky rolled up vegan sushi and some wraps.
Walk the dog to get some exercise.

(Saturday am was when I got the new move out date of 9-1)
haha I laugh at adversity!!!

Sunday
church and morning feast: we do this every week!
( book of acts style)
lazy afternoon reading
dinner by the lake at sunset,
my tummy hurts again,
when will i ever learn?

no soon I hope

it was a fine four day birthday bash
too much happiness to relate in a single post
now to the serious hustle of the month ahead.
grrrrr

buut first back to the hot stove ( its 10:25 pm)
I am happy

Friday, June 29, 2007

this is my life

Friday night
and I have NO reason to complain

more accurately:
I have at least seven reasons to rejoice.
to wit:
I wake each day smiling at the rising sun in a near perfect natural world.
I find deep restful sleep each night, free from anxiety, worry, or fear.
I have trusting, caring, helpful family and friends that make my life a breeze.
I have enough unfinished projects to last me until Jesus returns.
My mom makes good progress on healing her back and regaining her mobility with the help of lasers ( read about it here) She uses less pain medication every day.
Though life is a steep mountain, I am in no hurry to climb to the summit, and am enjoying going round it in distracted circles, seeing what wildflowers I can collect on my way up.
My daughter has her drivers license and I THINK she may actually know how to use it.
----------------- and it is the weekend------
maybe I will paddle my canoe on the lake

Sunday, June 17, 2007

from Grime dot net ( may 2003)

A Father's Rules on Dating his Daughter

5-X-2003

Rule One: If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be delivering a package, because you're sure not picking anything up.

Rule Two: You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I will remove them.

Rule Three: I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots. Still, I want to be fair and open minded about this issue, so I propose this compromise: You may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes too big, and I will not object. However, In order to ensure that your clothes do not, in fact, come off during the course of your date with my daughter, I will take my electric nail gun and fasten your trousers securely in place to your waist.

Rule Four: I'm sure you've been told that in today's world, sex without utilizing a "barrier method" of some kind can kill you. Let me elaborate: when it comes to sex, I am the barrier, and I will kill you.

Rule Five: In order for us to get to know each other, we should talk about sports, politics, and other issues of the day. Please do not do this. The only information I require from you is an indication of when you expect to have my daughter safely back at my house, and the only word I need from you on this subject is "early."

Rule Six: I have no doubt you are a popular fellow, with many opportunities to date other girls. This is fine with me as long as it is okay with my daughter. Otherwise, once you have gone out with my little girl, you will continue to date no one but her until she is finished with you. If you make her cry, I will make you cry.

Rule Seven: As you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to appear, and more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget. If you want to be on time for the movie, you should not be dating. My daughter is putting on her makeup, a process that can take longer than painting the Golden Gate Bridge. Instead of just standing there, why don't you do something useful, like changing the oil in my car?

Rule Eight: The following places are not appropriate for a date with my daughter: Places where there are beds, sofas, or anything softer than a wooden stool. Places where there are no parents, policemen, or nuns within eyesight. Places where there is darkness. Places where there is dancing, holding hands, or happiness. Places where the ambient temperature is warm enough to induce my daughter to wear shorts, tank tops, midriff T-shirts, or anything other than overalls, a sweater, and a goose down parka zipped up to her throat. Movies with a strong romantic or sexual theme are to be avoided; movies which feature chainsaws are okay. Hockey games are okay. Old folks homes are better.

Rule Nine: Do not lie to me. I may appear to be a pot-bellied, balding, middle-aged, dim-witted has-been. But on issues relating to my daughter, I am the all-knowing, merciless god of your universe. If I ask you where you are going and with whom, you have one chance to tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I have a shotgun, a shovel, and five acres behind the house. Do not trifle with me.

Rule Ten: Be afraid. Be very afraid. It takes very little for me to mistake the sound of your car in the driveway for a chopper coming in over a rice paddy outside of Hanoi. When my Agent Orange starts acting up, the voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the guns as I wait for you to bring my daughter home. As soon as you pull into the driveway you should exit your car with both hands in plain sight. Speak the perimeter password, announce in a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely and early, then return to your car - there is no need for you to come inside. The camouflaged face at the window is mine.



Happy father's day all you Dads!

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

a tag from Carol

Rules are:
* Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* People who are tagged, write posts in their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
* At the end of your post, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.


8 random facts about myself
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1. I have four cars, three that do not have current registration
2. As much as I enjoy construction I will leave it when I can do massage therapy full time.
3. I own ten books on massage therapy/ acupressure.
4. I make the BEST smoked salmon and smoked pork ribs ( come on over and see)
5. I eat way too much, and it finally is catching up with me.
6. I just bought my daughter strings for her electric five string violin.
7. Nothing gives me more pleasure than hearing her play with her school orchestra.
7a. yes, NOTHING!
8. God continues to invade my every waking moment and conscious thought with His words, His wisdom and His great love

I am not tagging you, but if you have 8 random facts please share them and note that here in comments, If not, tell me what God has done for you this day.

Thanks to Carol for tagging me

Monday, April 23, 2007

who is on first

Thanks Dad, for doing all the small stuff so well.
When you taught me how to hit a ball,
I really learned patience that I now give as a gift to my own son.
While you saw me learning to catch a pop fly, I was really finding out about giving my time to someone smaller than myself.
Even today, when I hear your voice telling me to run hard and run straight for home, I know you are talking about a different game.
I am so thankful that God gave me you for my coach for this life.
You are a winner, Dad. I love you so much.

Saturday, April 07, 2007

you bet your bunny tail...

yes, we boiled and dyed eggs here tonight.
Miss Hannah and I - playing silly kids together.
remembering days long past when holidays were
filled with joyous together times. Too soon she will be grown and off to college, so I treasure this sort of Father-Daughter time. Precious.

Now to go put them on the front porch so that when the Rabbit gang comes they wont' kidnap anybunny.
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