Thursday, July 28, 2005

We are leaving in a few minutes

I am going to my son's college orientation for the day.
I feel like I am giving up a part of me.
This year when school starts back up I will have two
superb sons in college and Hannah will be a freshman in HS.
I'm glad I am awake to feel all the emotions that go with this.
Years ago I was just surviving, and barely, and there were plenty
of days, and events where dad barely showed up, had his own gigantic challenges
and was in bad shape emotionally.
When you are already a wreck and something hits you, its not a big deal
When you work to get your emotional life in order
the impact is felt fully, as in yesterday - giving up my cat.
While prepared, I was hit by a flood of real tears
and saw again the passing of time and the march of calendar pages
even if I am not the one turning them.
So off to college I go again,
I am much smarter this time,
more handsome and way better equipped than 30 years ago.
Today - I enjoy the pull of the future
and don't get stuck in what could have been in the past.

5:50 am FTL


steve said...

God go with you!

Bar Bar A said...

Let us know how college was today. Your kids are very blessed to have you as their dad.

Jayleigh said...

Bless you, David.

Kerri said...

Life is a series of beginnings and endings as evidenced by your experiences. Saying goodbye to your cat while your children take big steps in their educational careers. I pray that God comforts and strengthens you and yours.

tomorrows up to me said...

My only daughter leaves for college on the 26th. I think the nest will be very empty! I'm glad I'm not the only
one trying to deal with this. Thanks for sharing!