Sunday, March 03, 2024

i am starting to wonder

 wonderment - please define that for yourself

mostly a positive quality and also universal, we wonder at what we do not know: the cosmos

we wonder at a butterfly wing, or the speed of a falcon, perhaps the blue of a lake

sad times we can wonder, "what went wrong?, what did I do? How can people be like that?

March came in like a lamb and in just a day the lion showed its teeth

I pray today for broken men, lonely boys and families that can not properly connect.

Wednesday, March 10, 2021

women in my history

 real, imaginary... biological and otherwise related

women have profoundly affected my life thus far

thanks MOM for wanting a brown eyed boy, here I am and the eyes that saw so clearly for 64+years have cataracts and through surgeries, new lenses, Yay

Mom was a superb example to me of Faith and works, of Grace and mercy, of being strict, but understanding the boy in me that took so long to grow up.

Heaven (did) help the women I dated in High School and college, I was a fun fool, and a clueless clown.  Hope I did not ruin anyone permanently. I may have been ruined, but not by any ONE woman, nor permanently, but every encounter led to  

strange dreams, and weird movie

 I can't control my dreams

I should control the TV Remote

We watched the movie "Bliss" and it blew my mind

good acting, wandering plot, that I can't fully explain here


My mind went back to my darker days , post divorce

when I could NOT get my act together, and people had to step in and help: am I responsible to apologize to them, now, for the costs of my care? for the costs of my negligence, I must make amends with those who were closestd and may have suffered ( silently) as I went through my depressed days and lonely winters. 

I only take credit for this, the life I entrusted to God has been lived with trust in Him, and grace from both Him and my family.

Others were with me on my crazy journey and some just watched as I wandered about, not always having anything (nice) to say 

To all I owe a debt, and a responsibility to do better, and walk in the wisdom and stability I now have.

to God be all the glory

Saturday, February 20, 2021

friends help the children from the reservation

so sad that we waste food, while others hunger